I’m stretched out on the couch. At the other end, sphinx-posed above my right foot is a cat — not mine, but a long term visitor. Next to the other foot is my rabbit Stampy. They are both staring at me, with that air of aristocratic disdain that both have perfected. Cat owners are familiar with it, but they may be surprised that rabbits can be just as proud. I’m not going to disturb them. I’m grateful for the calm. Normally they would be chasing each other around the room.
I’m reading a novel, and listening to some choral music by Christos Hatzis, who may be Canada’s answer to Arvo Pärt. A mug of hot chocolate (made properly with cocoa, not some instant junk), cheese and crackers on the table beside me. Electric lights have been dimmed and replaced with a small oil lamp, which emits a hint of roses from its scented lamp oil.
So I can’t work up any anger over any political news. At the back of my mind, an idea for a new novel is starting to take form, so I’m not concentrating too strictly on the book. In fact, I should probably set it aside and read it properly later, when my head is not drifting into my own fiction writing. I do a lot of writing in my head. Not from laziness. My right wrist was severely damaged many years ago (broken in twenty places), and it is physically painful for me to spend too much time at a keyboard. Those long stretches of work for clients, where I spend many hours filling out databases on Excel tables, are really hard on me. So I do as much writing in my head as I can, before actually sitting down to type. I’ll sometimes have entire pages in my head, composed while walking or riding a bike, before they are put down, though that very process will generate all sorts of errors, which have to be cleaned up on rewrite.
Things are improving, financially, very very gradually. I’m determined to travel next year, and I’m laying the groundwork to do so.
Stampy suddenly desires a Maria Biscuit. For some reason, he is obsessed with these tea biscuits, imported from Spain. He would rather eat them than carrots. He jumps on my chest, pushes his face underneath my book and into mine, and pulls at the frame of my glasses with his teeth. This is his method of issuing a non-negotiable demand. I’ve always suspected that Stampy has trained in special camps in Afghanistan, or Wisconsin, or wherever rabbit terrorists do it.
I cave in to terrorism. The Maria biscuits are kept in a brown cookie jar which is within reach. The music has shifted to Hatzis’ Footprints In New Snow, which incorporates that peculiar form of Innuit throat-singing where two women sing directly into each others’ mouths. The atmosphere in the room has changed from serene to spooky. The oil lamp, burning down to a short wick, is flickering, and throwing unstable shadows on the wall. I have a flash of memory or a lonely evening on top of a mountain in northern Quebec, at the back of the north wind, besieged by cold shivers and thoughts of Wendigo.
The lamp goes out. The cat and the rabbit disappear, off to the bedroom for some secret game. The room has grown dark. I hear voices laughing in the street. Red LEDS on the computer and audio equipment, burn like fireflies.
You can be in so many places, within one room.
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